Rebecca's 3rd Birthday is on the 25th.

Its hard to fathom that Rebecca has been fighting for three years. She has constant seizures and the pain is overwhemling. I spent a few extra hours with her this morning- trying to modify her chair so that she would be comfortable-- cannot wait for God to remove these seizures from her. He understands the pain of watching your child suffer, because He saw His Son beaten and crucified. I am in constant awe that God has given us the grace and strength to endure and prosper during this time. He has held us together and kept us at peace.

I long for the day that I will see her run the bases in that softball field in heaven, cheer as she swims a lap, teach her to fish, listen to her play the piano, or help her draw. Can't wait to see her smile for the first time-- hear her laugh-- her giggle --- her voice. Can't wait to walk with her and hold her hand and just visit. But for God's promise of Heaven and eternal life, I would have no Hope.

But is it really that bad that the very first thing she will see with her eyes will be our Savior? That her first words will be spoken in Heaven and will be "Holy is the Lamb!" That Jesus will tell her to see and walk and she will. That God will erase the pain of this world from her memory bank.

Sometimes I wonder if she won't know I love her till then. I talk to her like the eternal being that she is--one that I will recognize in eternity. Job, after losing all he had including his children said " Naked I came from my mother's womb and naked I will depart, The LORD has given and The LORD has taken away, may the name of The LORD be praised." We should praise God in these storms, because our turning to praise is the evidence of movement towards the ultimate end result of our salvation--becoming like Christ. This is what it feels like to be loved by God-- the comfort provided when this world strikes at the heart of what you love most--when Heaven has to be real or the suffering of this world makes no sense. That God's provisions of love and grace will satisfy the hungry heart that longs for still waters. When an examination of the facts of your life provide enough circumstantial evidence to reveal beyond all doubt that God's intent it to hold on to you in the storm. He is in the boat and ready to calm the storm--by revealing His authority over it.

God provides wisdom to those who seek it and fear Him. He provides comfort to His flock. He provides redemption to the surrendered and comfort to those in need. The comfort He provides is in the form of a deeper understanding of the rescue that will occur when He returns or calls each of us home.

Please take a minute on April 25, 2010 and pray for our family. We need your prayers.